For All Of This, I'm Better Off Without You. Do You Regret All Your Loneliness?

i know it's been nearly a month since i've last posted, but there's a good reason, i swear it!

my motherboard on my computer died. a horrible death. got that fixed, then the power supply needed to be replaced. did that. found out the harddrive had a problem. so off it went to a Sister's dad to be looked at. needless to say, i am getting a laptop pretty soon so i won't have to deal with this crap anymore. lol

new stuff in Sorority life:
1) my bff got screwed over by a boy. litereally. he fucked her then told everyone. now she is still talking to him, helping him out with his papers, being nice to him. yup. i'm basically like WTF!!!!!?!?!?! if a boy did that to me, then he'd be dead to me. no calling, no txting, no meeting up at parties, no helping him. but no. she "really really likes him" so no matter what he says or does, its going to be fine since he's "so sweet and kind and funny".
wow. cause i thought he was a douche bag because he took her virginity and then told his entire frat about it.
then i get yelled at for "being mean" to him. what? like i'm supposed to be nice? what for? he was a dick! if she's not going to stand up for herself then someone needs to do it! i finally told her that she could choose how i acted toward him. either A) i could fake nice-ness to him or B) i could pretend that he didn't even exist. but that she has no right to tell me i'm being mean.
i hate to say this but its girls like my sister who give us all a bad name. lets a guy fuck her over (lol) and takes it. no wonder guys treat us like shit, we act like its ok!
she claims that shes been in bad relationships before and always gets screwed over, but personally, the only person i see screwing her over right now is herself! seriously, act like a woman who values herself and tell him to shove it all up his ass. no more helping with papers, no more going to parties because he will be there, no more txting him back. nothing. zip. nada.

ok... i will probably rant more about that later, she's really pissed me off.

2) i have a new boy, let's call him J. yes yes, i know! but he's pretty great actually. he's sweet, calls me all the time, txts me to tell me i am pretty and he misses me, makes me mudslides when i'm feeling down, brings me coffee when i'm up all night studying (last night lol!), holds my clothes when i go shopping, takes me on walks. he's pretty awesome. (and he also doesn't understand why my bff lets this boy walk all over her.... he thinks its stupid).
we've had a few rough spots, i hooked up with his frat brother and good friend about 10 months ago (practically a lifetime in Greek life) and the brother won't leave it alone! it was funny at first but then it was kinda awkward. i told him to stop and boy did to. it was nice to have the guy i like stand up for me and back me up. apparently the brother also had told J that if he breaks my heart, he'll beat J up. which on one hand is nice and protective of brother, but on the other hand, i really don't need that.
then, while he was drunk he told me that J (my boy) is really in love me with, likes me a lot, but needs to fuck me and kick me to the curb. I asked J about this, who got pissed off. people need to stay out of our business. we like each other. we aren't fucking around. we are talking and taking it slow. neither of us wants to rush into anything right now. what's so wrong with taking it slow? everybody ends up happier, there's more hanging out, and not everything revolves around getting ass! My sibling needs to realize this too! she's always asking about him and me to which i reply "well, that's between J and me so...." and i leave it at that. no bitch, i'm not gonna tell you so you can go and tell the whole Greek community!
oh well. its crazy. whatever.
we also got Littles last week. needless to say, guess what! i did NOT get one. I am a little ticked over this as well. my Sibling (the one all up in my business) didn't give me one. which blows. we had 15 Bigs and 16 Littles. 5Bigs didn't get a little. that means that girls had to take Twins, which we usually use only as a last resort! plus, one of my sisters who is graduating in December got a Little! which is so unfair i can't even being to tell you! Plus when the Big leaves, the Little will be without any family at all in the Sorority! whatever, if i don't get a little next semester, i'm never taking one. too damn bad.
i think this is about it for all that has happened lately. i'm sure there is more but i don't think it's really that important, oh well. more to come later! stay tuned!